How she feels...
She entered the house and came across a familiar sight.
It was pitch dark, no soul around, no evidences to prove that it was what everyone calls HOME, a space inhabited by something called a FAMILY which is made of what we know as human beings.
But then for her this was nothing unusual. She was used to it. But deep inside she longed to be greeted by a human being after she came home from a hard day's work or from a long tour. But instead she always has to search for her keys in her bag to open the door and enter her own house. The keys, they have become an integral part of her life. Nice.
An empty house, dark and lifeless, a perfect setting for the mind to play games.
To think of things as negatively as possible. A perfect breeding ground for negative thinking. Even if she would want to think positive, be optimistic in her thoughts, the empty, lifeless space kills it entirely.
She speaks to herself, aloud, to break the monotony, to kill the silence. Depressing. But slowly she is getting used to it. She HAS to get used to it. Does she have an option? No. She doesnt have that luxury.
The only positive thing right now in her life is her friends. They make her forget her troubles, her sadness when she is with them. But she doesnt want to bother them with her troubles all the time. Every person has his own share of problems so why mess up happy moments by ones troubles and constant cribbing.. She always tries to be herself when she is with them.
But sometimes it is difficult considering the events which have been unfolding in her life one after another. Things are going wrong for her in all facets of her life.
For the first time in her life, she is feeling terribly pessimistic, scared, unsure where her life is moving, if moving at all that is. She feels defeated and lost. She doesnt know what she is going to do tomorrow, what lies in store for her. She no longer has the will to fight, to think and she is hating this feeling. This is not her at all. She just hopes things would get better for her. Only hopes. But she knows in reality, until and unless she herself does something about the situations, nothing will fall back on track. But she is tired. She doesnt have the strength to fight. She had seen miracles happen before and this has made her greedy. Now she also wants some miracle to happen in her life and her life once again comes back on track.
Despite having so many wonderful friends still she feels extremely lonely at times. She is feeling terribly lonely now. Hope she get's a decent job soon. That way atleast one part of her trouble would be over. Hopefully.
It was pitch dark, no soul around, no evidences to prove that it was what everyone calls HOME, a space inhabited by something called a FAMILY which is made of what we know as human beings.
But then for her this was nothing unusual. She was used to it. But deep inside she longed to be greeted by a human being after she came home from a hard day's work or from a long tour. But instead she always has to search for her keys in her bag to open the door and enter her own house. The keys, they have become an integral part of her life. Nice.
An empty house, dark and lifeless, a perfect setting for the mind to play games.
To think of things as negatively as possible. A perfect breeding ground for negative thinking. Even if she would want to think positive, be optimistic in her thoughts, the empty, lifeless space kills it entirely.
She speaks to herself, aloud, to break the monotony, to kill the silence. Depressing. But slowly she is getting used to it. She HAS to get used to it. Does she have an option? No. She doesnt have that luxury.
The only positive thing right now in her life is her friends. They make her forget her troubles, her sadness when she is with them. But she doesnt want to bother them with her troubles all the time. Every person has his own share of problems so why mess up happy moments by ones troubles and constant cribbing.. She always tries to be herself when she is with them.
But sometimes it is difficult considering the events which have been unfolding in her life one after another. Things are going wrong for her in all facets of her life.
For the first time in her life, she is feeling terribly pessimistic, scared, unsure where her life is moving, if moving at all that is. She feels defeated and lost. She doesnt know what she is going to do tomorrow, what lies in store for her. She no longer has the will to fight, to think and she is hating this feeling. This is not her at all. She just hopes things would get better for her. Only hopes. But she knows in reality, until and unless she herself does something about the situations, nothing will fall back on track. But she is tired. She doesnt have the strength to fight. She had seen miracles happen before and this has made her greedy. Now she also wants some miracle to happen in her life and her life once again comes back on track.
Despite having so many wonderful friends still she feels extremely lonely at times. She is feeling terribly lonely now. Hope she get's a decent job soon. That way atleast one part of her trouble would be over. Hopefully.
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