Life or Death?

...and she could'nt take it any more. Why was death playing hide and seek with her? She did have a choice to figure out if it was life or was it death for her? But she chose to play a wait and watch game.

She let go of herself and let the tears flow, hoping it would eventually drown her. And then there would be peace. Forever.

But sadly life is cruel. The tears flowed and stopped eventually and Pari was jolted back to reality. She saw the coming year staring at her, arms wide open, inviting her for the embrace. The deadly embrace. There was no way to run. There was no way to hide.

And Pari cursed the magazine containing the self test thing to figure out if you indeed had the symptoms of that most dreaded disease. Didnt her symptoms match with what was written in the magazine? It had, atleast for sometime, scaring the life out of her then. But eventually with passing years, the symptoms started fading away, giving her relief.

Now she wanted all the symptoms to come back. A few symptoms still exist, but if they were dangerous for her or an indication that she was suffering from the disease, Pari didnt know. But she could only hope and wait.

But she had this sinking feeling somehow that Death was cheating her, Life was stalking her. She hated God with all fervor.

And she cried....