Life or Death?

...and she could'nt take it any more. Why was death playing hide and seek with her? She did have a choice to figure out if it was life or was it death for her? But she chose to play a wait and watch game.

She let go of herself and let the tears flow, hoping it would eventually drown her. And then there would be peace. Forever.

But sadly life is cruel. The tears flowed and stopped eventually and Pari was jolted back to reality. She saw the coming year staring at her, arms wide open, inviting her for the embrace. The deadly embrace. There was no way to run. There was no way to hide.

And Pari cursed the magazine containing the self test thing to figure out if you indeed had the symptoms of that most dreaded disease. Didnt her symptoms match with what was written in the magazine? It had, atleast for sometime, scaring the life out of her then. But eventually with passing years, the symptoms started fading away, giving her relief.

Now she wanted all the symptoms to come back. A few symptoms still exist, but if they were dangerous for her or an indication that she was suffering from the disease, Pari didnt know. But she could only hope and wait.

But she had this sinking feeling somehow that Death was cheating her, Life was stalking her. She hated God with all fervor.

And she cried....

WTF!

Recently in the news....skeletons of kids found in Noida. Sexually abused and then killed. Bloody maniacs, bastards, they should be stripped in public and shot. A gruesome death, that's what these perverts need!

What has the world come to? So much of filth, so much hatred, killing, a woman in Mumbai getting molested openly by perverts at the Gateway Of India, sigh, what has this world come to.

In the morning you get the newspaper and try reading it and it leaves you depressed for the entire day. You then switch on the news, the same depressing news about killings, murders, accidents, rapes, fucking bomb blasts.

Just hope this New Year brings an end to all this. Wishful thinking I know, but I just pray to God.

Yeah I said I will pray. That doesnt make me believe in you God. I have lost faith in you and you know why. But today when I look around me, the suffering, the distress faced by people, I let go my ego and pray, pray that you do something good for them atleast.

Amen